Eternity, Fear of God

Humility // He is God, I am not. 

Who are we, as mere man, to determine right from wrong? Our standards and our self perception are foolishness in the sight of God. And it is when we think we know better and elevate ourselves above the wisdom of God that pride has entered into our hearts. The foolishness of God is wiser than man’s wisdom. His ways are higher than what we can fathom. It is utter ignorance and foolishness to declare that we know a better way than what God has provided for us through Christ Jesus. His word is final & all will be brought before His burning eyes one day. Far be it from me to scorn His ways and follow my own waywardness – only to regret it on that day when I stand before His throne.

At the end of the day, He is God and I am not. He is Creator and I am the dust formed by His hands. And it all boils down to whether we understand this one simple thing or, in pride, choose to rebel against it. 

As for me I will yield to my God in humility & worship Him in the reverence He is due. 

Musings, Process, Trials

Steady Heart

“So, my very dear friends, don’t get thrown off course. Every desirable and beneficial gift comes out of heaven. There is nothing deceitful in God, nothing two-faced, nothing fickle.”
James 1:16-18 MSG

The heart of man – so fickle and so easily swayed. So rebellious, so full of clamor, so easily shaken. Tossed to and fro like the wind, deceitful above all things. But not God. From eternity’s past, He has been, and all the way to eternity’s end, beyond what we can ever see or comprehend, He will be. He never says one thing and does another. He never changes His mind and His word is always true. He is never shocked. He never falls off of His throne. He is strong, He is certain, He is unfailing.

So is the one whose trust is in Him. When we build our hopes on Him, we can always walk on steady ground. The wind and the waves can come, but we will not be shaken, because the One we cling on to is greater than ourselves and He becomes the One who guards us and covers us. When we dare to root ourselves in Him, we will be as a tree, with steady hearts that are safe for ourselves and safe for the ones around us.

That is the difference between the man full of pride, and the man who is humble. The proud man crumbles because he walks on his own, but the humble man is a mighty oak of strength because his hope is not in himself but in One who is greater.

On our own we are like leaves blown about in the wind. But the one who trusts Him will never be shaken.

Consecration, Destiny, Eternity, Love

What Is The Point?

What if destiny isn’t a place I reach in ministry, but the journey towards the fullness of oneness with my Jesus? The fullness of my heart in love, devotion, intimacy and obedience? 

Is there any other way to life? Certainly not. All else is but a shadow to this one singular pursuit. 

My heart strays often to my other lovers. Sometimes they are all I can see, and they become my reality. 

But deep down inside, I long for One above all. How can I not? He is who I was made for, and in Him I come alive the most. 

I know that this life will be one where my “yes” to the Lord will be tested over and over again. There are moments when my love for Jesus feels like a fiery flame that cannot be quenched. At other times, and this happens more than I dare to confess, my love feels so weak. I am overwhelmed by the world and I feel so incapable of holding firm to the resolves that I make during moments of heightened passion. If not for the Divine Grace that holds on to me I would have given up and fallen away a long long time ago. 

Yet, it is worth declaring that through these highs and lows that I swing back and forth from, my heart for Him remains true. My love for Him has always, always been real, even in the moments when I am the weakest. I am not ashamed to say so because there is no lie in my words. 

And so over and over again I will come in humility and sing, even when my heart is so broken and all I can offer is the small hidden part of it that has pledged everlasting love to Him. 

This is the pilgrimage of my heart and the destiny of my life. This journey is one that I will give myself to for the rest my days, no matter how many times I break and fall. I know that one day it will be fulfilled in all entirety when I see – face to face – my Lord shining before me in all Glory, Beauty and Light. 

“All things were created through Him and for Him. And He is before all things, and in Him all things consist.”

“For of Him and through Him and to Him are all things, to whom be glory forever. Amen.”

‭‭Romans 11:36 // Colossians‬ ‭1:16-17

Jesus is the point of my life.

Grace, Intimacy, Musings, Prayer, Trials, Wilderness

Bruised Reed

A bruised reed He will not break, and a faintly burning wick He will not quench. (‭Isaiah‬ ‭42‬:‭3‬ ESV)

God does not despise weakness. It is the very nature of His heart to shelter it. It is so, so safe to come to Him in our frailty. He will not turn us away in our brokenness and neediness. He will not turn us away in our weak small love and in our feeble attempts at loving Him. He welcomes us into His strength and covers us in our weakness. A bruised reed He will not break, a faintly burning wick He will not quench, and a little frail heart He will never, ever turn away. 

I love His ways, they’re so kind. He is an amazing Papa.

Destiny, Musings, Prayer, Purpose


But I said, “I have labored in vain; I have spent my strength for nothing and vanity; yet surely my right is with the Lord, and my recompense with my God.” And now the Lord says, he who formed me from the womb to be his servant, to bring Jacob back to him; and that Israel might be gathered to him— for I am honored in the eyes of the Lord, and my God has become my strength— he says: “It is too light a thing that you should be my servant to raise up the tribes of Jacob and to bring back the preserved of Israel; I will make you as a light for the nations, that my salvation may reach to the end of the earth.” (Isaiah 49:4-6 ESV)

Men thought Jesus wasted His life. But His Father saw His labors, and counted Him as glorious.

Many despise hiddenness, but the one who perseveres faithfully in a life of meekness is held in high honor by God. He sees what man does not see. What He prizes is often very different from what man prizes. Man prize fame, renown and attention, but He loves what is done in the secret when no one is watching.

If you had to spend your whole life in hiddenness, would you still persevere in love and faithfulness? It is easy to perform in front of men, but the true litmus test of a yielded heart is seen only in the secret when no one is watching.

Away with the worship of stages, and fame, and big names. Let there be hearts that genuinely love and fear the Lord even when nobody is watching.

Fear of God


I’ve read many deep and complex quotes attempting to define humility, but from my own encounters and understanding of the Word, I realized it is actually quite simple. 

Humility is acknowledging complete weakness and helplessness without God. Pride is thinking we are something apart of Him.

Man in all his pomp and grandeur is disregarded as nothing before His sight. Woe to the one who shakes his fist at God and sneers at Him, but blessed is the one who acknowledges their need for Him. He opposes the proud but He gives grace to the humble.