Consecration, Desire, Love, Worship

What It Means To Be A Person Of One Thing

There is a war that rages in my heart. It is a war of love and affections. I try to fight it on my own but I cannot. I try to build walls, try to keep my heart pure and clean from distraction – gazed at only One. But on my own I am not strong enough. I am pulled from all sides and my attention is demanded by so many.

But this I know, in the presence of great Love, all other weaker loves fade away. What had seemed to burn so bright simply dims away. How can a flickering candle compare to the beautiful shining sun?

When the rushing tidal wave of His love crashes over me, every single fort I had frantically tried to build to keep other lovers out cease to serve their purpose. They don’t even need to be there anymore, because my gaze is so turned away from every other lover and I am utterly consumed by this single One most beautiful.

False love occupies space in our hearts. It demands. It takes and takes. But great Love frees us and fills us. The fierceness I had tried to conjure up all on my own is suddenly taken over by a stillness. A still knowing that I need not fight, I need only stay. The fight in me is put to rest by what my Father so willingly pours out. What rest for my weary heart! What peace..

Everything melts away when I look at Him. Above every other love, I will choose Him.

Consecration, Eternity, Fear of God, Pain, Prayer, Process, Trials, Wilderness

Embrace The Fire

Who can understand his errors? Cleanse me from secret faults. Keep back Your servant also from presumptuous sins; Let them not have dominion over me. Then I shall be blameless, And I shall be innocent of great transgression. Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart Be acceptable in Your sight, O LORD, my strength and my Redeemer. (‭Psalms‬ ‭19‬:‭12-14‬ NKJV)

Left on our own, we are helpless to discern between righteousness and unrighteousness. Ways that seem right in our own eyes may lead us to death. (Prov 16:25) Who can discern his hidden sins? Who can understand his errors and secret faults? My heart trembles in fear because I cannot see what is hidden within me. 

But He knows. And if we want to know, He is pleased to show us and take us through the fires of refinement. Of course there is a price to pay, but the rewards of it far, far outweighs the pain of sanctification. Better to pay the price of testing now than to pay the price of judgement later on. Better to be tested in my heart and to walk through the fire, than to live my life in ways that lead to death. We are never to abuse His grace and take it as an excuse for continuing to live in unrighteousness, hidden or unhidden. Sanctification is a necessary process and we are to walk in it. We are to walk out the righteousness given to us, and in doing so, willingly embrace the fire of testing and refining.  

Give me the testing, and give me the fire, so that what is impure may be burnt away and what is of gold, uncovered. 

Search me, O God, and know my heart; Try me, and know my anxieties; And see if there is any wicked way in me, And lead me in the way everlasting. (‭Psalms‬ ‭139‬:‭23-24‬ NKJV) 

Consecration, Destiny, Eternity, Fear of God, Longing, Musings, Purpose

The Beatitudes

“Blessed are the poor in spirit, For theirs is the kingdom of heaven. Blessed are those who mourn, For they shall be comforted. Blessed are the meek, For they shall inherit the earth. Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, For they shall be filled. Blessed are the merciful, For they shall obtain mercy. Blessed are the pure in heart, For they shall see God. Blessed are the peacemakers, For they shall be called sons of God. Blessed are those who are persecuted for righteousness’ sake, For theirs is the kingdom of heaven. “Blessed are you when they revile and persecute you, and say all kinds of evil against you falsely for My sake. (‭Matthew‬ ‭5‬:‭3-11‬ NKJV)

I am doing a one year Bible reading plan and I came across an old familiar passage. The Beatitudes. Only this time, I realized the utter richness and complexity of His words. I am so mind blown by this one passage! It will take an entire lifetime to explore this one single passage and what it looks like lived out in ordinary life.

What does it mean to be poor in spirit?
What does it mean to mourn?
What does it mean to be meek?
What does it mean to hunger and thirst for righteousness?
What does it mean to be merciful?
What does it mean to be pure in heart?
What does it mean to be a peacemaker?
What does it mean to be persecuted for righteousness’ sake?

…… what does it mean to be blessed?

I have barely scratched the surface when it comes to understanding The Beatitudes. I am even further from walking it out in my own life. But I want to understand His ways so much! I want my life to count for something in His eyes. I don’t want to waste my days, I want to live as one blessed in His sight.

Consecration, Eternity, Fear of God, The Church

Teach Me How To Bear Good Fruit

Therefore bear fruits worthy of repentance.. And even now the ax is laid to the root of the trees. Therefore every tree which does not bear good fruit is cut down and thrown into the fire. (‭Matthew‬ ‭3‬:‭8, 10‬ NKJV)

True repentance always results in good fruits. There is no way around it. Bearing good fruits does not mean salvation by works, rather, it is a by-product of salvation and shows evidence of it. A life that shows zero evidence of transformation is probably a life that has not repented and is therefore a life that is not saved. 

His words are very simple, and we must learn to take them at face value. He means what He says and He says what He means. Error is trying to twist His words into something we are comfortable with. Many of the things He says are extremely offensive, challenging passive mindsets to the core. But He is God, and we are man. So either we yield to His truth, or we fall into deception by coming up with our own versions of falsehood and mistruths. There really is no gray area. We either believe His words and follow them, or we reject them completely.

Let us not try to fool ourselves into thinking there is any middle ground. There isn’t.