I Choose You

There was once when I looked in front of me and I saw a crossroad. I looked to God for black and white directions but He kept silent and He told me do not fear, just choose. That shocked me. How dare He entrust to me a choice of such magnitude! He knew how weak and indecisive I was. He knew the way I would constantly sway back and forth in nail biting anxiety. Why then did He entrust me with such a generous command?

Because the thing about God is that He has the ability to see right past all of our flaws and into the very depths of our hearts. He sees the part that has silently vowed love and unconditional obedience to Him.

I understand now that there is complete freedom to make all of life’s big decisions as children of God. Because He is faithful and He will never leave us. Because He sends the rain wherever we end up, and whatever we choose, as long as we continue to abide in Him.

But I also understand now that there is a third road. A hidden road – that few find. One that takes great courage, and even greater sacrifice. But it the only road that leads to life, and the only one worth taking.

All this time, He told me to just choose, but little did I know that He was eagerly waiting for me to choose Him. His pursuit of me is so jealous! How it catches me off guard and woos my heart.

I will choose the road less taken and I will pledge myself again to You Lord. Over anything and anyone else. I have counted the cost, and I walk into this with my eyes wide open, choosing You with my whole undivided heart.

I am Yours. Freely, wholeheartedly and bravely Yours.

Fear of God, Intimacy, Love, Musings, Purpose

Real Faith, Real Love

Jesus replied, This is the work (service) that God asks of you: that you believe in the One Whom He has sent [that you cleave to, trust, rely on, and have faith in His Messenger]. (‭John‬ ‭6‬:‭29‬ AMP)

That is real salvation – to cleave to, trust, rely on and have faith in Jesus. That is the walk of faith – throwing everything else behind and clinging on to Him. So many say they believe, but their words are just a resounding gong – empty, and utterly meaningless. Let us not proclaim faith with our lips, yet have our hearts and lives remain so far away. It’s not just about believing. It’s about making Him our very lives.

Intimacy, Longing, Musings, Prayer, Process, Trials


He wants our realness more than He wants our pretend goodness. We can fool everybody around us with masks, but we can’t fool Him. He sees through it all, and all He does is bid us to come – real, raw and unashamed. 

Spiritual makeup never did anyone any good. Pretense and hypocrisy never led anyone closer into a genuine walk with Christ. It is better to come with our broken pieces and flaws instead of trying to pretend they do not exist. Because they do. We are but human and weak flesh.

And that’s okay.