Musings, Process

Resting in the Unknown

The fear of the unknown is a very real thing. Sometimes I give in to it, and I become so overwhelmed. I don’t know what’s next, I don’t know what I’m supposed to do, I don’t know where I’m supposed to be. Everything is so uncertain. I can see the big picture, but I cannot see the little steps in between and that frightens me. I’ve made so many mistakes in the past. I’ve taken so many wrong turnings. Although He has worked all of it out for good to bring me to where I am right now, and make me into who I am right now, it was not without a big price. It was not without a lot of tears and pain. What if I make another mistake? What if I take another wrong turning? What if it costs me another few years? 

Although these questions are real and legitimate, I cannot afford to allow them a voice over my life. I cannot afford to give way to fear. I need to remind myself of whose hand I’m holding. I need to quiet my heart down and look at Him. 

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I saw the road ahead of me
Narrow and winding
Treasures untold and dangers unforeseen 
How I will walk this road?

Will I walk it well? Will I stumble? Will I fall? Am I able? Am I strong enough? Can I really do this and do it well? Do I have what it takes? 

All of these questions flood my mind… 

Doubts,
Anxieties,
Fears,
I wrestle until I am weary! 

And then I stop to breathe. 
I turn and I look at the One beside me. 
He has raging eyes, strong hands, and a beautiful smile.
His countenance shines like the sun 
Leader, Lover, Father, Truth and Wisdom, 
He is all these things and more. 

I look at Him, and suddenly I know perfect peace.
Yes the road is long and winding, and I don’t know what each turn will bring, but when I look at Him, my fears melts away.

It is a sweet thing to trust Him. 

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Rest, my soul. There is grace for the one who chooses to follow Him. 

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